My questions?

It's peaceful. I sit and eat breakfast to the sounds of a well-played french accordion floating from the speakers to my ears. Just me; sitting, eating, listening. Enjoying the tranquility of an unemployed kitchen. It's so perfect... or is it? What if it isn't perfect? What if I'm not 'greedy' enough to seek out more? That's okay then, isn't it? As long as I'm happy. Or at least, as long as I think I'm happy. How would I know? Maybe the monks have a point... living a life without attachment...? Being brought up in a materialistic world, would I be able to ever feel what they feel? Oh well, too late. It's alright, I'm happy... I think. Well, I like it this way, that I'm sure of. Now... how long can it last? Will I be doing the same in 5 years? Even 10? Sitting, eating, listening... contemplating?

speaking of my future... what will it be like? Will I be successful? What is 'success'? I suppose, for me, happiness = success. Will I still think the same later on? How would my drawings look then? They change every year, they get better every year... can I keep improving like that? I hope so... but even if they do, where would I go with them? Will I ever give up drawing...? I can't imagine that at this point in my life... I've been drawing throughout my life... what is life like without drawing? Wait. Why do I draw? Is drawing my life...? Is it like breathing, for me? Do I need it?

Needs. I need so many things... but why? I have them... and I need them... am I addicted? If that's how it works... then I'm addicted to friendship, or at least, positive human interaction. I use that term because I'm not sure what 'friendship' really means. Dictionary.com didn't help much either...

_friend·ship

_n.

_{1. The quality or condition of being friends.}

_{2. A friendly relationship: formed many new friendships over the summer.}

_{3. Friendliness; good will: a policy of friendship toward other nations.}

3, would probably be the most helpful... for the other 2 you'd need to have interpreted a meaning to 'friend' for yourself, and me being the indecisive person I am, have not. Anyway, 3, 'good will'. So, a friend is a person you have 'good will' towards? Oh wait... it could also be a person who has 'good will' towards you... well, then 'friends' are people who wish each other well. It's easier if it's plural.

Could you answer any of my questions?

---EDIT:

~바보~ ღ says:
*starts reading lastest blog post*
~바보~ ღ says:
*stops reading latest blog post*
(tu) みねまる says:
nah dw
(tu) みねまる says:
I read over it after I finished writing
(tu) みねまる says:
and was like
(tu) みねまる says:
HAW SOUNDS SO EMO
(tu) みねまる says:
but I wasn't emo at all
(tu) みねまる says:
I was just thinking about stuff
so, yes! Don't worry if you got worried that I was going emo... because I'm not! (yet:P) Was merely thinking... and meeting a lot of tough questions.^_^;;

A Dazzling Day

Lalalalalalalalala~♪ I'm in a good mood! I had a wonderful day today! Mr.Young (my physics teacher) was away for the double so I had no classes after break! I played soccer with some guys and a few yr9s, where once again, I showed the silly prejudice yr9s that girls CAN play soccer; by continually tackling the ball from them... it's always rewarding to see their initial dumbfounded expressions.:) My left knee seems to have had to pay the price though, I blocked two mid-level switches using it and was later damaged by Terry monster-truck Chan whom I collided with in a tackle... damn, no wonder people never tackle Terry, Terry hurts! I got winded by his elbow in a separate tackle attempt... ah well, I wouldn't be playing soccer if I was afraid of getting hurt, right?;)

During lunch, I was informed of the restocked the Hot Chocolate powder in the kitchen!♥ While Helen, Jenny, Minki and Ivy prepared for their debate, I slowly contemplated crashing it... and ended up doing so.XD Thanks to Edwin, who told me what I needed to bring in and Darren(Ichwan) for lending me his copy of 'Maestro' I successfully snuck and blended in with the ESL students. Ahhhh~ it's good to be asian~ In return for the favour, I diligently took notes from the debate for Ichwan... and luckily so! The teachers went around checking everyone's notes later on! I was even praised by the unsuspecting teacher who checked my mainstream-english-standard notes! hurhurhurhur...

After the debate, we went to play soccer again! At first, I didn't manage to tackle the opposition, Simon and Paul are good at sheilding the ball... then my epic streak kicked in and I tackled Simon, dribbled, shielded from Mong and ran on to score my first goal!:D I couldn't have wished for a better first goal... it was so clear! It wasn't a rebound, I soloed and it's not like the goalie wasn't there either! It felt awesome, though I highly doubt I'll score another any time soon. No matter, I'm happy just tackling the opposition.♥

Also, whilst we walked home together; Helen, Narae and I made cute, japanese, 'guy' names for each other! Helen is ちんいきち(Chinikichi) because her Japanese/Chinese name is Chini, Narae's is なれたろう(Naretarou) and mine is みねまる(Minemaru) since Feng translated into japanese is 'mine'~ ahh~ Friendship is so beautiful~♥

I hope your day was as fantastic as mine!

Trudge, trudge, trudge

School's started again... how fast the holiday flew past! My mind and body are still very much in holiday-mode. Work is piling up... fortunately, the weather's been great! Sunny skies on cool days, cool but not cold; I hope it keeps up.

The wonderful weather is no match for my disinclination against school though... the motivation to work hard slowly seeped away during the holidays and I find myself loafing around during class time.:( Viscom mock-up for pt1 of folio 4 due in less than 2 weeks! Ah well, at least I finally got inspired for the major Studio Production for Art. My theme is conformity and freedom. Can't wait to get started for that... I have a few ideas I want to paint out! Too bad I'm busy playing Pokemon Mystery Dungeon instead... ^^;

It's wonderful wu liao fun! When I first started, I did the personality test and came as the 'jolly' type, ending up as a Munchlax............... after playing the first 3 dungeons, I decided I couldn't spend the rest of the game playing as a fat, weird-looking cat so decided to use a FAQ to become a Piplup (water pokemon can take shortcuts in some dungeons!) I also rechose my partner as a Chikorita and decided to name her, 'Helen'. Helen the Chikorita and Feng the Piplup later formed an exploration team which I named, Team Seishun! (Seishun = 青春 = youth, I don't know why, I just have a liking for 'seishun'... similiar to my fondness towards 'noutenki') When I told Helen at school today, she didn't seem very enthusiastic about it.:P

I hope to either finish this game or get bored with it soon so I can properly concentrate on school work... maybe I shouldn't have started it the day before school started............... Speaking of concentration, I've been daydreaming a lot lately. Daydreaming isn't normally too bad but I sometimes when I blank out, I come back finding someone staring at me directly. See, what happens is that I start daydreaming in someone's direction, they look up and see me 'staring' at them(when I'm actually daydreaming and not paying attention to the information being relayed from my eyes) and they stare back... very, very, very, very awkward!

staaaaaaaaaaare...

I will end this post and attempt to do some work with Kim's tag. I normally don't respond to tags but ah well~ For Kim!

In order to answer the tag questions, name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head. For those whom was tagged, please don't read the questions underneath unless you already write the names of all the 5 people. This is a lot funnier if you randomly list the names first.

1. Kim
2. Peter
3. Darren(Cheah)
4. Helen
5. Xandie


1. How did you meet number 1? (Kim)
We were in the same class from yr5 onwards at G.I.S.

2. On a scale of 1-10 how would you rate your friendship with 1? (Kim)
∞ *gets shot for not following rules and being corny at the same time*

3. How long have you known 4? (Helen)
Since yr10 through the Badminton round robin, I remember my onigiri was a conversation piece somewhere at the start.

4. How do you know number 3? (Darren)
Knew him as 'the other Malaysian person' at school during the whole of yr10 , then as 'Vanessa's admirer' throughout yr11, got to know him better towards the end of last year and now he's a 'valued' friend.:P

5. Where is 5? (Xandie)
hmmm... she's not online atm, so maybe at uni?

6. A fact about number 1? (Kim)
She's very energetic and we become super hyper in each other's presence!XD

7. Who is 4 going out with? (Helen)
If she were going out with someone, it'd be with me. *gets shot by Helen*

8. What does 1 do for a living? (Kim)
She just graduated from G.I.S. so she's not earning yet... (Kim, what do you want to do for a living?)

9. Would you live with number 3?(Darren)
I can't really imagine it...

10. What do you like about number 2?(Peter)
He relates to a lot of people and connects to many different wavelengths. I often find him striking up a conversation with a person he's just met. In short, he's easy to talk to.:)

11. Do you miss number 5? (Xandie)
Yes! I've only seen her once this year and because of VCE I can't sing with her anymore!

12. What’s you opinion of number 2? (Peter)
He's a really friendly guy whose heart's in the right place, quite a funny drunk too.

13. What’s your favourite memory with number 5?(Xandie)
Singing and dancing Seishun Amigo together with her at karaoke and on the streets in the city.

14. What would you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?(Kim & Peter)
Woah... very unexpected!O__O I think it'd be really interesting... though I don't think they're each other's 'types'... if it did happen, I'd muse, "Small world~".

15. Ever had a long conversation with 5?(Xandie)
Yeah, I think I have...

16. Have you slept at 2’s house?(Peter)
Yep, when I got locked out or when the bumming lasted until fatigue got the better of me and I dozed off.

17. Do you hang out with 3 alot? (Darren)
I think so, kind of... talk to him in school, play soccer and sometimes lan?

18. Who have you known the longest?
Kim, about... 6 years of friendship?:D

19. How often do you talk to 1?(Kim)
We used to chat on msn everyday but recently her internet's been iffy and none of my messages get to her! She's in Malaysia too..

20.How about 2?(Peter)
We used to chat on msn quite regularly, but he's been going out a lot.:P

21. Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?(Darren)
Nope

22. Would you go out for a date with 5?(Xandie)
haww... I don't think so, if she accepted, she might force me to crossdress

23. Do you dream about 2?(Peter)
He probabaly has been included in a dream... I can't really remember any though.

24. What did number 4 do to you that you can never forget? (Helen)
All the random inside-jokes we shared, I'll treasure them... TwT

25. What have you done for 1 that the person never forgets?(Kim)
All the random drawings I've drawn by her orders... I can't say for sure, since I'm not her, but I definitely hope she doesn't forget!:P

26.What's 3’s hobby? (Darren)
err... dota? Having weird perverted fantasies...?

I tag;

-Xandie
-Kim, if you want to redo:P
-Peter
-Darren
(just because I tag you, doesn't mean you have to do it, honestly I don't actually particularly enjoy being tagged normally:P)

The Joy of Cooking

Yesterday's dinner consisted of...

Lamb flower!

Cucumber flower!

Mashed-potato flower!

Cauli-FLOWER! heehee, geddit? Geddit?! ah~ the lameness never ends~

Failed mushroom flower Mushroom man!
(For the sauce to go with the lamb)

I also found a scarred apple (which my sister brought to work to eat today). Despite the huge, ugly scar; I found the way in which the pattern swirls according to the crevasse really pretty...

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this has been a text-lacking, image-heavy post from a lethargic Feng. I hope you were somewhat entertained regardless.;)