My questions?

It's peaceful. I sit and eat breakfast to the sounds of a well-played french accordion floating from the speakers to my ears. Just me; sitting, eating, listening. Enjoying the tranquility of an unemployed kitchen. It's so perfect... or is it? What if it isn't perfect? What if I'm not 'greedy' enough to seek out more? That's okay then, isn't it? As long as I'm happy. Or at least, as long as I think I'm happy. How would I know? Maybe the monks have a point... living a life without attachment...? Being brought up in a materialistic world, would I be able to ever feel what they feel? Oh well, too late. It's alright, I'm happy... I think. Well, I like it this way, that I'm sure of. Now... how long can it last? Will I be doing the same in 5 years? Even 10? Sitting, eating, listening... contemplating?

speaking of my future... what will it be like? Will I be successful? What is 'success'? I suppose, for me, happiness = success. Will I still think the same later on? How would my drawings look then? They change every year, they get better every year... can I keep improving like that? I hope so... but even if they do, where would I go with them? Will I ever give up drawing...? I can't imagine that at this point in my life... I've been drawing throughout my life... what is life like without drawing? Wait. Why do I draw? Is drawing my life...? Is it like breathing, for me? Do I need it?

Needs. I need so many things... but why? I have them... and I need them... am I addicted? If that's how it works... then I'm addicted to friendship, or at least, positive human interaction. I use that term because I'm not sure what 'friendship' really means. Dictionary.com didn't help much either...

_friend·ship

_n.

_{1. The quality or condition of being friends.}

_{2. A friendly relationship: formed many new friendships over the summer.}

_{3. Friendliness; good will: a policy of friendship toward other nations.}

3, would probably be the most helpful... for the other 2 you'd need to have interpreted a meaning to 'friend' for yourself, and me being the indecisive person I am, have not. Anyway, 3, 'good will'. So, a friend is a person you have 'good will' towards? Oh wait... it could also be a person who has 'good will' towards you... well, then 'friends' are people who wish each other well. It's easier if it's plural.

Could you answer any of my questions?

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~바보~ ღ says:
*starts reading lastest blog post*
~바보~ ღ says:
*stops reading latest blog post*
(tu) みねまる says:
nah dw
(tu) みねまる says:
I read over it after I finished writing
(tu) みねまる says:
and was like
(tu) みねまる says:
HAW SOUNDS SO EMO
(tu) みねまる says:
but I wasn't emo at all
(tu) みねまる says:
I was just thinking about stuff
so, yes! Don't worry if you got worried that I was going emo... because I'm not! (yet:P) Was merely thinking... and meeting a lot of tough questions.^_^;;